A work in progress... no idea as to when I'll finish it.. and as to meaning? It's conceptual, and has been knocking around in my head and heart for over 2 years now... so you guess, if you would like!
Gabriel's Visual Workin' Blog
My little spot on the web to showcase my art, writing and professional work. Please drop me a line if you like anything you see.
Monday, March 17, 2014
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Working on a few side projects just to push what I do with modeling. I'm learning how to use Blender now and it's like learning to walk again, it's tough going from Maya, which I am fairly decent at but can in no-way afford, (to the tune of around $5,000 USD depending on retail outlet, shipping and features) to Blender which is free and actually very robust but could be a lot more user-friendly.
Nevertheless Blender is a complete package, it features not only modeling, animation and a game engine but also a composite video editor, a strong renderer and an excellent and friendly online community, as well as a strong network of professional artists and engineers.
I just have to learn to use it... that's my only hurdle. XD
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Musings on The Wasteland - An Essay on a Work by T.S. Eliot
More old writing assignments from college
To
be absolutely frank, I am almost entirely overwhelmed. To even begin to think
upon this poem is a momentous task. Now, it seems to me as if there is a story
being told, that there is one general arc in which this literary work flows,
but with the almost cacao-phonic level of voices used in this piece, it makes it
all the more difficult to decipher the course upon which this work sails.
Considering how you, our instructor
alluded as to the grail-seeking influence that many have ascribed this poems'
intentions to, I decided to try to look at it from that standpoint. Oddly,
however, when I got to the chess game portion of this tale, I was immediatly
struck by a imagined simmularity to Homers' The Odessy. I think this was
probably from the aged queen-like figure seated upon her burnished throne,
seemingly to me as Penelope, and the dolphins' image, oft the symbol associated
with Ulysses, that graced the mantel. However, when I later read through the Exploring
the Wasteland website, I found that I was in error, as the collection of
references where in actuality in reference to a mixture of Shakespears'
Cleopatra and Antony, and Aeneas and Dido for Virgils' epic: the Aeneid.
At the same time, however, several pieces that utilized female characters in
their dwelling made me think of brothels as well. Ah. I fear for what this may
mean for my mental state. (I would also like to mention that
the annotations that other have made on this piece makes me wanted to expand my
literary repertoire very much, and I wish to begin this foray with The Golden
Bough, by Sir James George Frazer. It would seem that my knowledge of
ancient religious text and the classics is sadly lacking.)
This poetry work, it would appear,
is much-steeped in biblical references, those of the recounts of the hermit Ezekiel, the book of Isaiah,
There
also seems to be a great deal of male/female duality. Such as the hyacinth
girl, as according to this poems' notes, the hyacinth is a males symbol. Also
there is the "Old man with women's breasts", with "wrinkled
dugs", dugs being another word for teat, a more agriculture-based term for mammary glands. So perhaps the characters of this piece are only incidental to
the story itself, and serve only to give a face to humanity as a whole. What I
am thinking is, that maybe this poem is actually a description of the plight of
humanity. and that when we hurt each-other, we are also hurting ourselves. Maybe
that is the reason for this dichotomy I perceive. I also fount the websites'
translation of the line Mein Irisch Kind to be a bit odd. The website
says it means My Irish Darling, but as far as my own very poor German
goes, I know kind to mean "child", while it is liepschen
that means "darling", or "beloved".
TS Eliot is very good at what
I could only call descriptive atmosphere. When he paints a scene through
literature, he not only fills in the contours, light and shadow, but he also
adds in rich, detailed color as well. So it is fair to say that there are a few
lines that somehow struck me deeply. Such as this:
A woman drew her long black hair(seems to be a reference to Morrigan, a Death-associated Goddess of War)And fiddled whisper music on those stringsAnd bats with babyfaces in the violet light(these seem to be the netherworld's' version of the heavenly cupidon)Whistled, and beat their wingsAnd crawled head downward down a blackened wall(Blackened? From burning? From the atrocities of war?)And upside down in air were towersTolling reminiscent bells, that kept the hoursAnd voices singing out of empty cisterns and ex-hausted wells.(This seems to me to be the earth itself, crying out in anguish)
I've run out of space. I rather enjoyed this assignment, my thanks to our instructor!Also:In this decayed hole among the mountainsIn the faint moonlight, the grass is singingOver the tumbled graves, about the chapelThere is the empty chapel, only the wind's home.It has no windows, and the door swings,Dry bones can harm no one.(I find this verse to ring of hollow beauty, a quiet, peacefullness, but of sadness as well.and the forgetfullness of Time, illustrated beautifully by just one line:)Or in memories draped by the beneficent spider.
An Old Essay I Wrote While Living in the SF Bay Area
Spined
Portal
Life
isn't fair, but, at the same time, the fact that our lives are not simple and
easy, is a form of fairness in and of it's self.
People
in general, however, don't tend to see this. We tend to candy-coat things,
masking life for what it really is from our children. Those children grow old,
mature, and embark upon a society that they are not really prepared for. Some
of them do well enough, others fail. And whilst failing, and falling, they
strike out around themselves seeking another to blame. Such efforts, however,
shall find no target, as there is none to blame. None shal step forward, since
there is no-one to blame but ourselves. All this I get from peering at a
photograph I made whilst touring the streets of San Francisco's Civic Center.
Perhaps when you first see this
picture you won't think much of it. You only see a window, and it's partnered
wall, with brass adornments. But take a closer look. The adornments are in fact
a series of spikes. Why are such things on a windows' sill? It it to keep
people away. A certain kind of people. People who have nowhere else to go,
nowhere to keep warm, and to feel safe. I have often thought on this problem.
Such a thing as this, it doesn't just plague our own society, but that of many
others as well. It is worldwide. Other people often think that it is our governing body's responsibility to help out those of us who are homeless, that
it is society that is to blame. Surely, it's someone else's fault. I had though
like that before. I stopped, however, for I thought it useless. Those people,
they are ourselves. Our problems are essentially that same, in the mental aspect.
We like to blame others for our various anguishes.
Even though the very fact that we
are seeking answers is a positive direction, the conclusion that is often
arrived at is ultimately unhealthy. The fact is, there is no-one to blame but
ourselves. We are the government. We are all this nation, and the
homeless masses are also a reflection of self. We need to let our children know
about the realities of life. About the grim, as well as the brisk. This window
with the spiked sill represents to me an unbalanced view on life.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Initial sketch of my tower.
Floor texture map
How my tower came out.
A rough in 3D, I'm working on the textures for this.
The noble Jasper McDoggie. If this photo looks good, it's through no fault of my own, I fully lay the blame on Retro Cam on my Android phone.
Edible Gestalt
This is a 'marginally' decent sketch. /pun-mode
One of my first jobs straight out of Ex'pression was with Blicks Art Supply, where I worked with a bunch of other starving alumni. Best thing? Great employee discount, so I got to make paintings like the one on my artpad here using really high quality acrylics I probably wouldn't have gotten otherwise. ...but now that I've used Golden, (the brand) there really is just no going back to the cheap stuff. My poor wallet.
A rough for a 'design a nasty weapon' contest that Game Artisans was running. I have the 3D model somewhere, I'll post it later. :D
I drew this a little sideways with my head leaning on my arm in Starbucks while living in Emeryville (E-vil FTW!), so it's a little distorted.
I don't really like the eyes that I drew here, they're poorly rendered and are actually 'symbols', rather than actual eyes. It's a technique I really need to refine. But hey, it ended up on the wall in my college figure drawing class, so I guess that's something!
I was playing with one of the school's loaner Wacom pads, really need to either get mine fixed, or just replace it with a Bamboo Fun.
Friday, May 20, 2011
The CDC Rocks
Scout Motto: Always Be Prepared.
Well the CDC is slinging this too, but in a whole new light.
I've always had a sympathy for the Center of Disease Control, but always thought they would be a fairly dour and serious organization.
Who would have thought they'd have such a fun sense of humor?
Well I'm glad for it!
Well the CDC is slinging this too, but in a whole new light.
I've always had a sympathy for the Center of Disease Control, but always thought they would be a fairly dour and serious organization.
Who would have thought they'd have such a fun sense of humor?
Well I'm glad for it!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
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